i just have to say...

my gaydar is off... must always have been... a foriegn exchange student from my freshman year found me on facebook... he was my first true crush... oh that's right he's gay!!! i can call it for everyone else just not myself... this is funny and must be the way my life will continue!!!

DESPERATE!

so kim and marne aren't the only people desperate to get their hair cut! so here's the thing... my hair was driving me crazy... it was so unhealthy and broken that i refused to straighten it because i knew that i would sit and pick at all the broken ends. today, as i was sitting at family dinner and the crowd was thinning out i couldn't take it anymore and told my mom that she was going to cut my hair! i went out to my car and grabbed my scissors (i had them in case joel or shannon wanted a cut) came in and started sectioning my hair. I sat on the chair and the flashbacks of youth started running in my head... whenever my mom would get her hands on my head i would end up in the bathroom crying... I sucked it up and started explaining exactly how i wanted it... 90 degrees out of my head with your fingers at a 45 degree angle... cut on the inside of your fingers... when she and my sister (who i wrangled into staying to support me) were able to decipher what i was saying, held our breaths and the cut started. I walked her through it, while i held a mirror and nesha held another, i watched and told her exactly how to do it... the first cut they were nervous but i looked at it and told them it was perfect. they moved through and did an amazing job! I had her deep point cut into my hair and as i sat there and explained they looked at me like i was crazy, they did it and then brushed it out... they both had a look on their faces that said that, ooooh she does know what she is talking about! nesha eventually unlocked her nervous death grip on the mirror and my mom was able to put away the scissors and comb without me wailing in the bathroom! i can say now that at least i do know what i am doing and even though my mom did the classic one side longer than the other, i could fix it and i just need you to know that I AM CUTE!
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the joys of the d.m.v.

my liscense plate tags were expired...so after various wrangling with the main office in sacramento i decided that i was done with the mail correspondence and got up really early and got down to the d.m.v. in hillcrest. as i got in and got my number, B21, i went to go sit down and patiently wait for my number. i sat there and various thoughts came to mind...
1.the d.m.v makes me itch. even just thinking about it i have to scratch my head.
2. i wonder when i am going to have to wash my hair to get rid of any lice that i caught from the various strangers sitting by me.
3. the chairs are TOOOOO close together and I don't like sitting on a strangers lap.
4. i don't speak spanish, tagalog, french or any other language, so its not that fun to sit and decifer what the crap is being said in the moments of uncomfortableness when you are sitting on top of each other.
5. i don't like to get hit in the head with purses diaper bags or briefcases.
6.i wonder why the place has to be so sterile and laugh as we all sit there with blank faces and try to avoid eye contact with anyone.
7.i feel like i am trapped in the movie beetlejuice.
8. everytime the voice came on i thought it was funny that everyone would look down praying that it was your number.
9. finally getting called is the BEST feeling in the world and you feel like a true winner with someone yelling "come on down, nicomi"
10 scrambling to get to the counter before they give up on you and push for some other ticket to get there.
11. you better PRAY you have all the documents whether they be something obscure or something obvious... or else you will be trapped in a never ending hell as the clerk looks at your very frustrated face and with glee in their hearts they send you scurrying for some other piece of paper filed in some other place that you have to remember!

Things I've learned recently!

1...i am alone and most of the time its fine... sometimes i am ready to meet someone.
2...i don't know where to go to meet anyone...
3...i need to get out of the house everynight and go to the gym!
4...i want to get out and learn more and be better everday!
5...i think step ups SUCK!
6...i love my mom and she has a sick and twisted sense of humor just like i do!
7...i usually follow the rules, but when i mess up i mess up BIG!
8...i doubt.
9...i believe.
10..i love to workout and it makes me smile!
11..i get irritated at some people no matter how nice they are to me.
12..i am addicted to sugar.
13..i want to be healthy.

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HAPPY NEW YEARS!

the year has come and gone... i can't believe its 2009! so many interesting things happened last year, good, bad and the never mentioned but its always good to ring in the new years with people that you love! we chilled up at my friend karens house, invaded was more like it, but i felt at home walking in and seeing a new adult every second and then the kids running everywhere... i don't think i ever got a name to a face but they were cute! it was fun to celebrate a fake new year with them and to do those poppers... i didn't know where to hold it and it really has a kick when held incorrectly!