update

some of my thoughts and favorite moments...

friends coming for the my favorite holiday... just felt off this year because it was on a sunday... i missed swimming and playing in the water this 4... but overall a great day full of family friends and of course the ultimate ending to a night... the loved (and hated) marshmallow war down at the beach.

i was driving behind this car and it was covered in stickers... i first noticed her because she was going so freakin' slow... anyways it had an obama sticker, a "why do we kill those that kill to show the world that killing is wrong" and equality sticker... obviously i thought to myself i would love to talk to that person that professes to be an open minded soul... but i can promise you this, she wouldnt be open minded if what my thoughts and opinions differed from hers... i love to talk to them... i would tell them that obama is horrible, that i believe in the death penalty, that not everyone deserves to live in the united states... even though not all the statements above are really the truth... but i would love to see what her face was as i straight face made those statements :)

i am learning that a call out of the blue from a friend is cherished... dinner and pinkberry make it a night that made my soul happy... and to have her listen to me and not let me steer away from the wedding topic was appreciated...for her to look at me and say " you made everyones wedding day easier or more beautiful with your talents, i dont necassarily have those same talents but i can help!" i was amazed that she walked away with an assignment that i have no doubt she will be able to do... it was nice to have a friend help with the planning:) it was nice to know that i do have a friend here in san diego :)

that being said i have learned that i will actually call and have people help me... i just have to figure out what i can divvy out!!! SO WATCH OUT!

i stayed home on sunday to make some flowers to attach to my beautiful wedding dress and i ended up watching WE tv... so it started out with my big fat wedding, then ultimate wedding cakes, then to top it off with bridezillas... josh was at the house and i was telling him how appalling it was that these girls/women throw tantrums, berate, scream, make fools out of themselves so that they can be the princess for one day. i hate that word but i really hate it when its thrown my direction... so i was at dinner and i was saying how i wanted something that i am not going to get, but i wont say anything to the person making it because i dont want to be labeled a bridezilla... when both my dad and brother james call me repeatedly a bridezilla... so i did the best thing i could and burst into uncontrollable tears... i cleared the area, and everyone sat there in uncomfortable silence as tears rolled down my face. i couldnt make them stop. aaaugh get me back of birthcontrol.

i have been slow at work and am going out of my mind. but i will be busy again soon since i love what i do :)

thats not all... but that all for now :)