i am living my big fat mormon wedding!

Seriously it was amazing and humbling to see manny enter into the water... i was sitting there thinking he really is doing this... i half way expected him to look at me after the baptism and say i mormon now... it has been humbling to see him as he is a 'baby' in the gospel and to learn right along with him from the scriptures... its also fun to try and put into words things that make sense to long time members... but not necassarily to new people in the gospel... he is amazing to me... just so you know... i love him.

this weekends adventures with my niece and nephew

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conference!

thoughts that jumped out at me...

what would it feel like to me to be pulled out of the crowd and forced to take the cross off of my saviours back and carry it the remainder of the way up the hill, through the jeering cheering crowd to watch them crucify him.

that HE lives...

i am and will always be a child... i know that i will have my time on my saviours lap with his arms around me... he will wipe my tears from my cheeks and i will have my own time with him to feel his wounds in his hands and his feet.

Manny and i went on our first road trip to Vegas a couple of weeks ago so that he could meet my friend kimmie before the arrival of her little bloodsucker (ok i am a little not happy with the little guy as he is giving kimmie a run for her money...i am sure i will be over it as soon as i see his little face) and before fishing season is in full swing... we left right after work on thursday... so i was really tired which is a pleasure to travel with me when i am like that. Manny is one of the few drivers i actually trust but when i am tired all bets are off... i was a little out of control with my use of the invisible brake and a little jumpy to boot... made for a cranky manny that wanted to pull over and make me drive. I knew going over that it would be the weekend of kimmies vegas shower... so here she is showing me her belly at the shower...

kimmie and her friend allison who i always want to call dilly... but really she is allison, who has an adorable little boy that i could just sit and watch all day because he is so funny...

kimmie and i at the shower.

manny and i went to mandalay bays aquarium... yes i could have passed as i live right by sea world but its always cool to see what is in the sea :)

did i ever tell you that i hate hearts but i like this one :)

being in these tubes will always remind me of holding bryce in my arms when he was itty bitty... and looking over at him to see him snarling at the sharks... he was showing them his teeth :)

one of the cooler fish that we got to see

so valentines weekends we got to stay at this amazing house on the cliffs of encinitas... this is how i know i am marrying someone that i am compatable with... we couldnt find a golf ball so he came over to practice with a basketball!

thats at the edge of the property... it was amazing...

just because i cant resist... i made the whales spout on my mom... she wasnt happy because i was messing with her just washed hair but i love this picture :)

on a roll...

went to the gym today...
still red faced, but getting easier...
amazed that my body adapts...
will constantly have to change things up...
white dress you haunt me...

back at it again.

worked out.
wedding dress fears will go away.
red faced, people staring at the store.
will succeed.

been too long :)

so what has my life been filled with lately. A lot!!!

i was able to housesit this amazing house that sits on the bluffs of encinitas over valentines weekend. the place is 3 stories, and has an elevator and its own stairs that goes down to the beach. it has clean simple lines and a place to put everything. I was in heaven :) i got to watch 2 dogs and got all the love i could possibly want. as i was cuddling with roxy i thought yep i do need a dog one day... she did something that truly made me laugh, she would fart and and it would scare her and she would run away like she didnt do it. i wanted to run away myself when i got a whiff of one of those nasty farts. dog farts are the worst. period.

manny asked me what i wanted to do for valentines day... and so i told him NOTHING. i don't want to talk to anyone except for him, i wanted to stay at that beautiful house and enjoy it, i wanted to read book, walk on the beach, watch the whales from the kitchen... i wanted to do NOTHING!!! i got my wish and it was lovely! i think that this wish came from working and talking tooooooo much the days previous and i was tired from trying to entertain. i do also have to say that any of my presents to manny fell flat. blah. i hate trying to make a commercialized holiday special. i like it when he spoils me just because he is thinking about me and not because he is told that he has to. i also know that i like to spoil him for he exact same reason.

i bought my dress and it is beautiful... however for whatever reason possessed me i bought it in a smaller size... WHY THE CRAP did i do this? it is my every freakin thought... uuuggh... now i need.must.absolutely.work out.work out. workout. here we go again. my terrible nightmare of walking down the isle in my sweats with a wifebeater that says bride on it will be my wedding attire. WHY OH WHY did my sister allow me to do this.

So people just know that i will post it here about my workouts so that i will be more accountable maybe... frick what did i do.

other than that nightmare everything is coming along on the wedding front :) i just keep plugging along with it and pray that it all comes together.

i also got a brand new niece this month... i told mary ellen that i would be more than happy to watch the kids and take them to school when they were in the hospital... for some reason i was awake at 2:10 in the morning... when i get a text from james saying that it looked like it was time so i needed to head over. i am a little slow at this time in the morning, so he texts back that they couldnt wait and to just come over and go to sleep in their bed and they would call me in the morning. turns out they really couldnt wait because i passed them at 2:30 in the morning and and i get a text at 3:1o that she was born!!! she has a ton of hair and is beautiful:) i feel bad for her because her 3 siblings all adore her and always want to touch and love on her. she is very blessed with a family that cherishes her. and lets be honest she has the best parents!

enough of an update for now...luvs